Lately I've been walking around with a heavy heart.
It seems like for the past couple days I've been really thinking about what my future holds for me and sorry for being so honest but it scares the shit out of me. Not knowing what's going to happen or not knowing if what I'm doing right now is the right thing is seriously so hard to handle for people like me. People who like to know what's going to happen next, what they should be doing to achieve certain goals, or how their going to meet these goals.
I didn't mean to post such a depressing post so close to the weekend but unfortunately life is not always as "simple" as my blog name would otherwise have you believe.
Being so close to graduating college has really put my mind on overdrive. Lately I've been hearing things from all these recently graduatees:
"I can't get a job"
"My degree was completely useless, I should've just gotten a job after high school"
"Grad school isn't worth it, you'll be buried in debt with no job in the end."
Now after listening to that, who would want to graduate? I know every young adult goes through this phase but no one ever told me I'd constantly want to pull my hair out! And of course there's the added pressure from my mom and family does not help matters. At all.
The only things getting me through these rough times is knowing God's got my back. And his going to do beautiful and wonderful things with me.
I graduated two years, during the worst of the recession, and felt exactly the same way! It was terrifying! And I had an English degree which wasn't exactly marketable. But, I got a job (lousy, but it paid the bills) at an insurance company and went to school at night for my paralegal certificate. And two years later I have a great job that I LOVE, and it was all worth it. So while it's scary right now, it will all work out exactly like it's supposed to!! And don't let anyone convince you a degree is worthless - it's not!!
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